purpose, storytelling, rants, recap
This past weekend, I had just graduated from CP12 where I spent 7 months in a transformative and experiential Coaching “Change your Entire Life” program with 124 other deep diverse divers from all around the world. The themes from CP12 were Wake UP, Come OUT, and Join IN. Pushing us all past our edges, softening and smoothing our internal systems, moving fast at the speed of desire. We all played full out.
I’m in digestion mode now, reflecting on the subtle to huge transformational shifts that took place internally within and externally through all of the moments that expanded my consciousness. And I can say wholeheartedly now, without shame, that I choose to go down this path. I choose to live a life of Desire, Connection, Community, Healing, and Awakening. I choose to constantly Come Out just as I am.
I took on a five-week band challenge after meeting Tiffany through some mutual friends in Taipei. It was the end of the calendar year, and I was interested to do a ‘personal inventory’ that would help me to verbalize and examine some of my recent development, and give me some ideas to move forward with. I didn’t map out all five weeks in advance, because I preferred to allow the journey to inform itself, and to unfold as a voyage of discovery. In the end, I traveled through Patience, Pride, Curiosity, Integrity and Freedom.
Moving forward, I feel that I will be more diligent in exercising values in my daily life, and especially my interpersonal relations. Having spent five weeks examining and labeling my life with vocabulary related to values, I am more likely to contemplate which element of my own system of values I would like to exercise when I find myself in a complicated situation that requires action. The band challenge is an fun and versatile method for exploring conscience and consciousness, and I would recommend it to anyone who is interested in expanding and diversifying their understanding of personal identity.
Q&A, values dissect, recap, rants, storytelling
In the thick of it, I knew that this is why I’m here. I mean not necessarily for nude photography. But an extension or application of something to pull me out of my body and my mind. In the light and dark of my subconscious, I wanted to explore the realm of radical self expression, self love, vulnerability, awareness, and connection with mind-body-spirit. I wanted to be free and unchained from all of the “should’s” and "shouldn't" dialogue from my past. Ironically, in stark contrast, within reality, John has me chained and tied in handcuffs with my hands above my head in blissful surrender. I’m exposed but not broken.
John shows us the pictures. I noticed my body at first and found it to not to be the main focus. It was within the faces. In Johns photography, he captures humanity. What it means to be raw and completely human and at peace.
This is Day 2 of Burning Man. This is just the beginning. I’m grateful for this experience that catapulted my understanding of self love to make room for more enriching tales to follow...
As we were dressing back up, John pulls me aside. He invites me to visit him back in Santa Clara for more individual photo-shoot sessions. I’m flattered but mostly perplexed. I had to ask, “Why? Why me?” He says something to the extent of “unconventional beauty” and how his mission is to spend the rest of his life capturing what that is for people to witness.
So a week later after Burning Man, I find myself with a strong impulse to drive to Santa Clara and connect with John. He’s a wise character. And I am tenacious and relentlessly curious.
Go with the flow, explore, and find yourself along the way.
He was on board with the Q&A interview. Here is John Brennan, the man who makes people see something in themselves they never saw before. This is the man who Goes with the Flow.
Here is his life story arranged from a lovely conversation as we pick his 5 values up together.